` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Saturday, September 23, 2006
5:43 PM
hey guys~
i've moved..
to a new blog! =)
relink me.. (:
www.haoxianggaosuwodeta.blogspot.com
cya there!
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
felt like blogging.
ha. such a rare feeling i would sae. =x
okiee... strange time too.
3.30am now. haha.
and i jus woke up.!
slpt at abt 8pm. due to....
ULTIMATE TIREDNESS.
haha. yeah duno y i'm so tired.
but finalli.. yes finalli.........
i'm gonna have a 1 week hols!!!! =)))
*grins from ear to ear*
i reli need a break man!
life in uni is not as relaxed as wad most ppl sae!
y ah y ah!.......
everyone is chiong-ing!
and i feel so stupid during lects,
when i can't do those qns my lecturer post up!
is it jus me? ha.
god noes. dun care le.
HOLIDAYS!!!!
=))
but results for this half sem was..
i would sae..
not bad. =)
and i think everyone else is the same la..
haha. so yeah.. jiayou~
HOLIDAYS!!!
let's see wad i wanna do...
meet up with sarah, cy and.. err..sy. LOL.=p
meet up with the softballers!
meet up with adeho and yh!
go have big meals! yea yea. grow FAT.
go tanning!
go library study my math! yea i noe crazy.
but reli need to ma!
math is screwing my life up!
stupid.
i always thot math was my POWER subj.
but ha.. no longer. =x
nvm nvm..
HOLIDAYS!!!
caught *john tucker must die* ytd with clem! =)
a rather nice show! it's.. haha. funny!
alright.. the date went rather smoothly~
and i had my long-craved spaghetti!!!!
been craving for tt since god noes when.
had gelato's waffle icecream as well! wooo!
a nice evening spent! (:
thank u. for everything.
i noe i'm a hard nut to crack.
and until now.
i'm still unsure..
of wad is best.
hai.
i'm..
confused,
yet again.
hai....
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Saturday, September 16, 2006
12:02 PM
-clearing dust and spider webs-
yeah yeah so long nv blog le.
so many things happened.
aso very busy.
with skool. with everything la.
haha. shall not bring the mood down. =
today morning, woke up with a damn good news!!
can imagine ma!
my pri skool form teacher, mrs lim!!
she's coming back from HK soon!!!!!
and she emailed us to ask us to meet up!!!
awwwwwwwwwwww~~~
so touched can!
she still rmb us la!
and i'm gonna bring all the things she made for us!
those bookmarks, the magnet, the file.....
they're still in good condition can!
wooo! =)))))
6A ppls mus be equally thrilled! =PpPp
we'll take this chance to meet up with EVERYONE!
the girls, the guys!
see how much all of us had changed!
oooooooo~~~ i'm so excited can!! =pPp
here's our class photo!!!!!!!
hee. so many memories coming up!
our song. our photos. our memories!!!!
bottom 1st row,
ME!, yenlin,samatha,
devlin,eldon,eugene,zhengsen,john.
2nd row,
xinyi,hema,mindy,lixian,clara,tsin li,shunann,
gab,charlie,zhihao,ranon.
3rd row,
huiyun,minchu,jithra,persis,maureen,yanting,
asen,marcus,viknesh,mingqiang.
top row,
nurul,jiaxuan,mavis,prsicilla,siyin,caroline,serene,
aziz,xiuhan,zhenwei,jeremy.
and lastly....
MRS LIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to think i could still rmb allll their names! =)))
cant wait to meet them up!! =))
hai. but sian.. hope my face faster recover.
wanna be pretty pretty to meet them leh!
hahaha. everyday pray. =x
okie... nth else to blog abt le la.
life's been reli boring and lifeless!
skoolwork, tests, craps...
hmm. nth much.
and oh yeah.
ADE HO IS MY BEST FRIEND.
SHE'S THE KINDEST, WARMEST, SMARTEST,
LAZIEST, BIG-FACEDIEST.
LOL!.
she's gonna kill me for this.
well well, i'm prepared! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
hey zharbo, so sorry la......
ur bestie here haben eben celebrate ur bday with u.
i'll give u a smooch when we meet up k!
MUUUUUUUACKS! =Pp
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
12:45 AM
i duno wad's best.
i reli duno.
i reli duno.
i reli duno.
i reli reli reli reli duno.
seems like i'm running away.
seems like i'm avoiding.
but deep down,
i know,
i care.
i duno y i wanna run away.
run away from all troubles&unhappiness.
i duno y i wanna act.
act like nth happened at all.
this feeling is killing me.
this feeling is suffocating me.
i jus wanna noe wad is the best way out!!
---------------------------------------
a chem test is coming up this friday.
i duno y i'm giving myself so much pressure.
it's jus teeny weeny 5%.
jus 5%.
wth is wrong with me!!!!!!
everything seems to come to me at one go!
wad happen to my stress management!
i have no more chocs to keep me happie..
i have no more cookies/brownies.
and.
i have nobody.
feel so much like crying ALL out!
shouting and screaming ALL out!
ALLLLL OUTTTT!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHhhhHHHHHHH!!!!
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Sunday, August 20, 2006
9:07 PM
- the end -
wo hui xue zhe fang qi ni,
shi yin wei wo tai ai ni.
loveya.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Thursday, August 10, 2006
10:29 PM
today's 1st day of skool!
math lect was GOOD.
phy lect was darn BORING!
and finally bio lect was SHITTY!!!!
cox i totali noe NUTS abt bio!
din touch bio at all since sec2!!
and the last thing i rmb-ed from bio was...
sexual reproduction!
and now i'm actually handling......
CELLS! WTH man!!
wad prokaryotic. wad eukaryotic.
wad cytoplasm. wad cell membrane.
OHMYGOD!
they're like some alien language to me.!
i'm gonna seek help from ade ho!!
not gonna let myself flunk this elective!
it's onli 1st day of skool..
and i'm falling aslp in lects! LOL.
damn funny!
and my stomach growled DAMN LOUD..
during phy lect! LOL.
so paiseh. whole face turned RED!
reli damn loud and long la..
stupid sy and sy! keep luffing at me!
i hungry maaaa...canot blame rite!
hahaha!
okok tml whole day lecture again!
wooo!
and the LT's bloody small to accomodate all of us!!
went late for my bio lect and i had to sit on the floor for like bloody 2 hrs la!
listening to smth tt i catch NO BALL.. =(((
okok. better go slp le..
yawns!
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
10:11 PM
happie national day! (:
din get to catch the fireworks though. =caught *THE ANT BULLY* instead. =)
haha. nice show!! serious.!
theatre was SUPER cold..
but i got a warm cup of cappu! :)
yawns.
feeling tired now..
tml's 1st day of skool!!
with all day filled with lectures!! woo!
i wonder. how i gonna survive.
sure slp. hahaha.
okok 1st day 1st day 1st day.!
looking forward.~
:))))
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Monday, August 07, 2006
12:19 AM
so sick.
so sian.
SO BORED AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
heck la. heck everything.
todae whole day at home.
so not used to it can.
there's nth for me to do.
i slp, eat, on com, do nth.
WAH LAOOOO!!!!!
so frustrated la.
i guess i'm so used to working le..
i wan work work work!
i hate being cooped at home,
and there's nth for me to do!!!!!!!!!!!
when i'm bored, my mood dampens.
yeah i noe tt.
so to prevent tt from happening tml,
i shall go swimming! i shall go..hmm....
library? lol.
shall go...shopping? yeah but window one la.
no money le.
or will spend my WHOLE day at sports complex!
after swimming, go gym!!! YEAH MAN YEAH!
tt will do! =))))
was browsing friendster jus now..
chanced by yiwei's one..
wooooo! he is so super sweet can!
his profile all abt his girl~
almost all his pics include his girl~ =)
either her alone, or both of them.
i find tt reli reli reli sweet can.
and yeah! these sweet things done by my fren.
CHUA YI WEI! lol.
his girl mus be *xin fu xin fu*! =)))
come to think of my sec sch guy frens..
some good lovers i guess!
RAYMOND!
hahahaha! agree??
okie YIWEI!
JONATHAN? haha. i guess so la.. (thot of the times he fought over a girl *ahem ahem* with another guy!) LOL. tt's quite funny! not reli fight la.. jus..he hanged in there sia.. but... LOL! =)
SEBASTARD? LOL. i'm ONCE ONCE ONCE his only fren can!!! sobs. now someone indulging in his loveeeee liao!.~ =
who else who else... hmmmm~~
aiya dunoe le la~ =))
so sian now. SIAN AH!!!!
i wan work work work work! =or give me $$ to shop shop shop!
i wan be independent and be.. HAPPIE!!!!!!!!
HAPPIE!!!!!!!
HAPPIE!!!!!!
HAPPIE!!!!
HAPPIE!!!
I WANNA BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
=)))))))
hahahaha i'm going mad.
oh yeah.
went ntu on friday~
for my skool talks!
ahhhh...............................
full of LADIES.
and i mean FULL. hahaha.
and full of.... *YOU KNOW WHO*.
LOL. sian lo sian lo! =thinking have to make new frens..
abit sian. lol.
duno y i become like kinda anti social le. =p
hahaha.
shall await my 1st day of skool on FRIDAY! =)
mon, tues, wed, thurs no skool!
SIAN LA!!!!!!
but will be going cca openhse on tues! yeah!!!
shall go ask abt wakeboarding, and DANCE!!
HONGYING!! i wanna join dance noe!! LOL.
okie okie okkie..
bye.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
11:26 PM
i ended ALL my work last week.
last sunday was my last day @ Robinsons. =(
sad. but HAPPY.
haha crap.
hmm.. din bear to leave tt workplace.
cox the ppls there r fun! and kuku! =p
the aunties gave me and sy pressies!
can see they reli dote us alot seh!=p
the younger ones there (all NTU-undergrads).
including me and sy okie!
haha. we went for SUBWAY tgt too~
on the other hand, i'm damn happie!
becox FINALLy FINALLY i can stop working.
haha. guess i'm TOO TOO tired le..
sian of working le! haha.
countdown! 5 more days to 1st day of skool!
i'm waiting waiting waiting! =Pp
hmmm.. went to the doc ytd.
clem accompanied me there..
regarding my face. hai..
becoming more and more jialat.
red bumps.
skin peeling.
itchiness.
pain.
ahhhhhhhhhhh... hope will recover soon!
and stupid clem is torturing me!
he dun let me eat chocs, fried food, seafood!
ask me everyday eat yong tau foo!!!
i'll persevere!
i'll make sure my face condition improves!!
so ppls out there,
if u see me on the street now..
face ugly ugly. dun luff~..
cox in 2-3months time, i'll be prettier le! =p
hahaha i'll hang in there!
YEAP!
YYEEAAPP!!
then today, went to dye & highlight my hair!
wooo!! i love my hair now!
jus wish my face will be nice aso. then it'll be perfect!
haha. but nvm! give me 2-3 months!! =okok. i LOVE my hair!
lalala.
then met sy at JE. go make specs!
hee. i got my long-wanted WHITE-framed specs!
simply fell in love with it man!
and sy got her RED-framed specs!
woooo!! we're all prepared for UNI! =)
NONONONO. i'm still not!!
i haben got my pencil case!!!!!
it's time i go hunt for one! =p
yeah then caught *long hu men* with clem @ JP.
not bad a show~
got shuai ge- shawn yue!!!! =p
clem said his -shuang jie gun- skills are real.
wonder if it's true..~
how can be more li hai than MY JAY?
canot be canot be.
nono.canot be canot be. lol.
speaking abt MY JAY,
his album will be out soon!
hell yeah man! can't wait can't wait!
1 month~ and i got new songs listen and LEARN le!
=))) happie happie!
okok i need to slp earli.
my face condition will improve!!
i'll persevere!
nite.~
and YOU.
i'm not waiting for YOU le.
humph~ bb.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Saturday, July 29, 2006
11:25 PM
okie 1stly,
happie birthday to chew pc!
2nd one to get knocked out.
and to think HE'S THE BDAY BOY!
hahaha!
okie la. can forgive.
he downed 12cups of chivas at a go.
*applause*
and yeah. i skipped work today.
was super LAZY.
haha. jus plain LAZY.
somemore the heavvy rain....
came at the RIGHT time. lol.
so yeah. my 30bucks gone.. haha.
tml i'm sure sure going.
my last day le..
oh yeah i'm sure gonna mention this.
my work at yuhua pro-teach ended on fridae.
was reli sad.. hai!
gonna miss the kids LOADS.
did some last minute pressies for them~
bookmarks! which looked reli nice yeah! =p
3 kids left pro-teach too.
becox i'm no longer there.! oops. =x
was kinda touched la.. but felt so bad too..
ehh.. and 2 of them asked me for private tuition!
*i'm a good teacher ok!*
hahaha. but hav to wait till i get my uni timetable b4 i settle anything! =)
frankly, can't wait to end all my work.
haha. work until tired le..
wanna start SCHOOL!
i'm looking forward to SCHOOL!..
hee. but...
no work = no $$.
siAannn.!!
and..
thank YOU.
for the care..
for being worried abt me.. (:
i will be okay.~
this is promise YOU.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Monday, July 24, 2006
12:45 PM
finalli got mood and time to blog! (:
1stly, haha abt cruise!!!
can go ready up sy's blog for all the details!
she's so hardworking to type out EVERYTHING!
hahaha!
shall post pics instead! (:
this is our STAR CRUISE!
the beautiful lobby!
in the toilet @ the place where we had our BUFFET meals everyday!
have to note this down..
SEAH SIM YEE chiong for the cakes every meal!! LOL.
the sun is rising!!!!
i'm strong enough to carry the sun k!!
i'm spidey's wifee! LOL. lame. k.
Marine Park.
where we went snorkelling!
cool experience!
yesh! we're @ Pulau Redang!!
beautiful rite! haha. both me and the scenery!
they might kill me for posting this. LOL.
but hey at least i din post the other one k!=p
so reluctant to leave this place!
in our room!
b4 checkin out..
sy and i were les-ing under the blanket!=p
our room!
waiting to get down the ship!
and look who's there!! VINCENT NG!
weng qing hai!!
haha with a female celeb. duno her name. =x
okie back in spore.
went centrepoint cox of saeco uncle!
haha. got him some cheapo stuffs.
like teabag, sugar and spoon! LOL.
had dianna to curl my hair! =p
--the end for cruise--
then was work after tt..
same old routine..haha.
then then was ytd, after work..
went gai gai awhile with clem..
did some groceries shopping! LOL.
and off home to prepare our dinner!
tada! healthy rite!!
okok minus off the CALBEE hot and spicy chips.
haha.
salad. (diced potatoes, ham, cucumber, tomatoes, lettuce.. with thousand island dressing!)
CAMPBELL soup.
satay chicken. =)
was fun preparing it!.. and haha.
heartwarming la heartwarming la. =P
haha.
auntie tried the salad aso,
left some in the fridge for his sis as well. =)
then b4 i left for home,
auntie gave me this!.
omg. my most expensive facial possesion.
*hugs* felt so loved. by HER. hehe.
ok la ok la.. by HIM aso la. heee. =p
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Friday, July 14, 2006
11:27 PM
i'm back!!! lol.
it's hell damn lot of fun there!!!!!
so fast have to come back le.. =(((
too tired now to elaborate more. lol.
will update again when i get the photos ready!
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
1:50 PM
went SWIMMING ytd morning!
wooooooo! like finalli!!!!!
after 2 yrs+??? LOL.
was so excited so excited!
=pp
swimming's damn fun!
tanning too!
i noe i'm getting DAMN WHITE!
not fair. but WHITE.
omg. this is so not me can.
so i swear i'm gonna go swimming often! =)
jus love my new bikini to bits!
wahaha!
i LOVE the SUuUUunNNn!! =)
yeah yeah.
all my bags are packed,
i'm ready to go.
lol. sounds as if i'm going so far away.
nah~
gonna embark on my cruise journey soon!!
meeting sy, sarah and her bf (wc) @ 4.10pm! (:
i'm going cruiseyyyyy~~~~~
my dear ade ho, pls dun envy me too much yea?
LOL.
i'm going cruiseyyyy~~~~~
gonna come back as a tanned-by! =pp
(hope so)
gonna feel the sea breeze,
listen to the waves,
in the middle of the nite..
hope i'll see dolphins jumping out of the water!
i'm gonna enjoy every single moment! wooo!!
update more when i come back!
ja ne ppls! =)
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Monday, July 10, 2006
11:15 PM
SICKENING.
wrote a damn long entry 2 days ago..
but duno wth happened.
everything's gone!
lazy to retype and re-upload the pics le.
=(
abt my bday celebration with
1) ade ho and yh.
2) clem & family.
fun & great!
spent a simple and memorable 19th bday!
///for today\\\
world cup. it's OVER.
no more match to watch le.=(
sobs.
and yeah to italy~ :)
i won a BK meal from saeco uncle!
and chocs from my students!
hee.
ytd was at clem's place watching the last match.
italy vs france.
watched the 1st half alone.
cox he fell aslp.
then woke him up with a big smack on his hand.
smth bad happened.
again.
or issit.. smth disappointing?
smth..
ya. heartbreaking.
the feeling is so unbearable.
it's totally painful.
i nv nv ever thot u were like tt.
felt like my heart had been torn into pieces.
and never can it be fixed. ever again.
i'm tired.
i swear i'm tired.
disappointments jus keep coming non stop.
jus tell me, when will it ever stop?
i managed to calm down.
and told myself, i'm not gonna let my emotions make any decisions at tt moment..
i'm gonna think everything thru..
thoroughly, properly.
i'll tell u my decison when i come back.
though these few months after we "broke up",
we still keep in close contact.
and seems like nowadays,
we seemed to be back to normal.
i reli thank u,
for all the confirmation and assurance.
for all the hugs and kisses.
for all the love and care.
and for the disappointments and heartbreaks.
do i still have the courage to love?
do i still have the ability to trust?
do i still believe u'll mend my shattered heart?
i've been questioning myself.
but i have no idea at all.
i noe..
since i'm sure i love,
i shld trust,
i shld believe,
but it seems so difficult.
it's getting even more far-fetched. now.
so far tt i feel i have difficulty reaching.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
oh my,
wad exactly is the right choice?
for us.
for me.
for u.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Thursday, July 06, 2006
2:42 AM
wth.
pissed la.
my entry is gone.
duno wth happened to the internet.
MY WHOLE ENTRY IS GONE!
took me so long to complete!
=(((((((((((((((
wait till i have time and MOOD.
then update again.
SIAN la!
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
11:56 PM
my bday is jus round the corner!!
gonna turn 19.. very soon~
see how time flies man! omg.
too fast too fast.
tml(28JUNE),
meeting up with peishi!
lol. she's a fren i got to noe when i worked at Kumon a few months ago.
and such coincidence!
she's from Zhenghua sec too.
so she noes abt me and clem. haha.
the incident tt happened on the first and last day we met at Kumon was reli funny! =p
(29JUNE),
teaching @ Yuhua CC.
(30JUNE),
going for medical checkup at NTU with sy and sy!
ooh!? same initials!
now then i realise
simyee(jc fren) and siyin(p.skool fren).
and they're both sec skool frens. =)
haha.
after tt probably going SHOPPING!!!
with ade ho! gonna jio her out.
since she's so super bored at home!
finalli got time to shop!
i'm gonna shop will i drop!
MNG, here i come! =p
(1JULY),
work @ Robinsons!
gonna treasure my last few days there.
haha.
sunday(2JULY),
gonna have a lil celebration at my uncle's place. and at the same time, giving farewell to my cousin who's going overseas for good.
(12mn).
probably will with clem. =)
we'd awaez spend our 12mn tgt.
both for his bdays and for mine. =)
this wld be the 2nd bday he'll spend with me!
wld it be the last too? =( haha. god knows.
on monday(3JULY!!!),
gonna go for movie with ade and yh!
our very 1st movie tgt!
can imagine?
besties for like 7-8yrs,
had nv been for movie with jus 3 of us!
weird, isnt it? lol.
probably going ESKIbar too! after movie!
so excited!
and definitely looking forward! =p
my days are fun-filled yeah!?
=)
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Monday, June 26, 2006
1:20 PM
overtired.
yet again.
felt like fainting ytd at work.
din have breakkie, lunchie, dinnie..
ate abit onli.
and jerome's choc! hee.thanks dude!
supposedly can slack the whole day de.
cox i got no chocs to sell!
i sold finish all on sat.
but nah, i jus dun feel like slacking.
i wanna keep myself BUSY.
so i helped out at the cashier counter!
poor kader and michael..
they definitely need our help!
the queue is like sooo long can!
did lotsa packing&packing&RUNNING!
feeling giddy at times. =(
but still, carried on. =p
siti, auntie june aso helped out.
saeco uncle aso.
the 2 of us stayed at the counter for so long!
like fighting war lidat! lol.
fought until 11.20pm lidat then he 2 of us went off.
michael and kader promised us canadian pizza!!!
was dead tired. lol.
still ran for train!
haha. pulled saeco uncle run with me.
though his train is approaching in 5mins' time! lol.
damn funny.
hmm ok. reached home at abt 12+.
bathed, chatted, off to bed!
today morning woke up,
feeling muscles aching!
omg. this shows how long i haben used my muscles!
shoulders. thighs. arms.
it's time i go swimming!
since i need not work in the morning le!
yeah yeah swimming swimming!
here i come! (:
time i go prepare for teaching!
bb.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Thursday, June 01, 2006
12:48 PM
oOooooh!. it's high time i blog! haha.
left this blog rotting for duno how long le~~
hmmm life's abit abit diff.. or issit the same...
nono it's diff.. lol.
SUNDAY:
hmmm..took my last sunday off to go over to clement's place becox it's his mum's bday!! =)bought his mum a bear bear from COOLBEAR WORKSHOP. damn cute~ and i'm sure she loves it alot! haha. too bad i forgot to take a pic of it!.. =\ but anyway, HAPPIE BIRTHDAY AUNTIE! =)
haha. actualli it seems more like a gathering for me and clem and his frens! at 1st was onli me, clem and sc. then yf and pc came. then sc went off. then mich came. lol. ate, played 2 rounds of mahjong.. hmmm.. though me and clem din meet up at all for 1 whole month, i din feel weird or awkward seeing him again~ think he doesnt too! haha. same goes for his frens.. we din meet up for quite some time too~ but nah.. there wasnt any weird feelings at all. HMM!.. seems like i'm so used to all of them. =\ hmmm ook.then after tt we went for supper at JE then pc drove me home 1st before sending the others home~.. thanks dude!
hmmm it seems so much like wad we awaes used to do.. mahjong-ing. supper-ing. =) those were the days.... will they come back? i seriously have no idea.. =)
like wad clem says, let nature takes its course..
MONDAY:
met up with clem again after my teaching. he came to fetch me! =) hee. tt's like so nice~ haha. then we cab down to fajar to get chilli crabs (i promised his sis to treat her crabs!) and cereal prawns b4 heading back to his place for dinner with his family! the dinner was simply great and heartwarming. =)
the 5 of us sat down on the table.
uncle, auntie, clem's sis, clem and me.
haha and zhikang was jus walking ard and disturbing me! lol. keep calling me fatty bom bom! =\ haha. he's still as cute!
uncle gave the last crab claw to me. n he din have any.
clem's sis asked me abt my uni stuffs.
auntie din reli tok to me during dinner.
clem was jus busy EATING. lol.
the feeling was nice.
feels like we were one family.
but hai! haha. nvm..
it feels so much like one last dinner. =(
after dinner, clem went bathing.
and his mum sat beside me, talked to me as she stroked my fringe.
and there i was, crying.
when clem came out, i faster wipe them off!
haha but still, i was caught. =p
hmmm......
then lazed ard in his room n watched my fann wong show!
when i was abt to go home,
auntie packed me a whole bag of sweets! haha.
and his sis gave me a box of chocs! damn tasty de lo! =p
i was rather reluctant to leave.. cox..
it feels so much like one last visit. =(
then clem sent me downstairs while i cab home.
we hugged. and ya..
it feels so much like one last hug. =(
i'll awaez rmb ur smell. =)
i noe u'll rmb mine too! =)
TUESDAY:
SAME OLD ROUTINE.
WEDNESDAY:
yeah! it was my long-awaited Sentosa trip with my kids!
wooo! 22 of them!! taken care by me and one chinese teacher..
cox the other teacher onli can communicate in chinese,
i was the onli one who's responsible for communicating with the other teachers from other branches, leading the kids, giving them directions, keeping them in order. woo! it was a rather heavy responsibility~ but nah~~ it's not difficult for me! i was a girl guide PL rmb!? lol.
everything went reli smoothly! i crazied and played with my kids on the bus! haha. they were all so excited!
1st, we went for Luge! was damn fun! i raced with some of my kids! haha and we saw peacocks along our way too! i took keith with me too bcox he was not up to the height limit. haha. he's a vvvv cute boy can! will upload the pics next time!
then we went for Skyride!! WAHHHHHHHHH! i tell u! we're super super hyper! lol. i divided them into groups of 4. so tt the bigger ones can take care of the smaller ones~ the ride was damn cooling.. we were taken up to duno how levels above ground! we could see the BIG sea. the beaches. the whole sentosa from the top! we all jus sat back and relaxed and woo! haha. i reminded my kids to *kiap* on to their slippers.. cox our bottom was covered with NOTHING. haha. i swear i'll go there again!
then was lunch. and Carlsberg SkyTower!!!!! it was a 360degrees view of the whole sentosa! can imagine? beautiful. pretty. marvellous! my kids were going "wah! wah wah! teacher! see!! lao shi! ni kan!!" lol. haha it was reli fun up there man! it's a damn romantic place to hang out with ur loved ones esp!.. esp at nite~ i wanna go there again!.
then next was cinemania! damn cool! it's so real man~.. the 3d "movie" kinda thing~ i put one of the kids on my lap bcox she was afraid.. lol. felt so motherly~ lol. oh did i mention i met sauyan!!! yesh! i met him!! lol. with his..hmm hongkong frens? or issit taiwan frens? i forgot. lol. he was in the same cinemania~ haha. so qiao rite~
okok. after tt was own time at orchid garden! my kids bought some fish food and started feeding the fishes~ 2 of the boys from the gombak branch fell into the pond sia~ so careless of them! heng nth happen to my kids! *phew* it was scorching hot man! it's been so long since i'm out in the sun! love the feeling of perspiring! i shld go out more....=( i shld! i wan!! but i cant. =(
hmm then was back to visitors' arrival centre. to wait for our bus~ and off back to yuhua pro-teach! some of the slpt on the bus, some were still ENERGETIC and played, some were busy munching on their titbits. me? walking up and down to check on everyone~ haha. played and kop-ed food from them too! =p but i was too careless la.. din remind them to check their belongings before alighting.... poor kai le~ left his bag on the bus~ but will be getting back for him soon from yew tee!
when we came back, some went bathing, some were caught by their teacher to do some work, some were stuck in front of the tv, watching pokemon and mr.bean! haha. the rest who din go, keep asking me how was the trip~ and haha joyce was so funny! she so wanted to go de! haha.
and oh.. yimin, joyce, kewei, minyee said tt i look like joanne peh! lol. clement, did u see this!? lol.
yea yea. wad a long entry. took me so long to type! lol.
was free this morning~ no choc job~
will be going teaching later! yeah~
time for lunch! bb~
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
11:29 PM
below are some qns and ans..
qns are taken from jas' blog..
found them quite.. fun. or..rather.. not.
--here it goes--
qns:
when u ask a question,
would u be prepared for the truth?
if the truth hurts,
would u rather the person lie to u?
in the event tt he knew u'd get upset,
and so he lies to u,
would u get affected?
ans:
1stly, when i ask a qns,
i definitely wont be prepared for the truth.
cox i ask WHATEVER i wan to noe on the spot.
yes, i might break down.
i might cry hard.
but no matter how much the truth hurts,
no matter how dead i'll feel,
i still wouldn't wan the person to lie to me.
even if he loves me so much,
so much tt he doesn't wish to break my heart,
and so he chose to hide it from me.
yes, i'll definitely get affected.
i'll get upset & heartbroken.
i'll hate the person at tt moment.
for making me feel so cheated.
for making me feel so unloved.
for making me feel tt my 101% love was not being appreciated.
but, on the other hand,
i'll feel touched too.
he is suffering for me too.
he has to face me, despite his lies.
he has to act like nth's wrong,
and everything's going fine between the 2 of us.
it must be so hard on him too.
yeah.
somehow, the trust will diminish.
i am someone who trust -theoneilove- alot.
so when disappointment comes from -theoneilove-,
i'll get greatly affected.
wondering..
y did he choose to do tt?
y din he care abt my feelings?
jus who am i to him?
these are thoughts tt will run thru my mind.
but time and again,
i'll remind myself tt he is -theoneilove-.
no matter wad, i got to trust him.
simply becox he is -theoneilove-.
i'll be brave.
i'll not care abt how much my heart will hurt.
i'll be cruel to my heart, for now.
for, i noe.
he'll mend it nicely all over again.
tt's wad i'll choose to believe.
i may sound foolish.
and childish.
but tt's how much i'll do,
if i reli love -theoneilove-.
some of u may say,
*it's not worth doing so much for someone,
someone who'd hurt u so deeply.*
yesh i truly understand the meaning.
but for me,
tt's reli jus how much i'll do.
for -theoneilove-.
i'll believe i can be his shining star.
i'll believe he'll love me as much as i do.
i'll believe he'll care more abt my feelings.
i'll believe i'll be -theoneheloves-.
but when all my believes slowly die off,
i'll noe it's time to..
let go.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Sunday, May 07, 2006
12:52 AM
work was fine.. or i shld sae.. GOOD?
lol. sales was not bad~ =)
after work, was totali no mood to go home.
called ade. no answer.
called clement. no answer.
piang.........
the softballers actually were having dinner.
but i din noe they met up onli so late!
shld have gone to find them!
miss them like sooo much can!
=( gang, tam, sebastard, ray, bryan, yuhua, jas.
oh my oh my.. i reli miss them!
wanna see their botak heads! hee.
okie so in the end, went home.
reached chi. grd..
thunder started to roar.
lightning started to strike.
knew it was going to rain soon..
yet i din wan to go home.
sat alone on the bench at chi grd station.
listening to jay's songs.
wind blowing with lil lil rain on my face.
the feeling was nice.
it's cooling. it's kinda.... -sad-.
probably due to jay..
his songs are so -speak my heart-.
waited for the rain to subside..
hee...
decided to walk in the rain! =)
been a long time since i did tt!!
was so excited can!!
though i'm holding umbrella......
lol. still, i played with it.
like how i've awaes been playing, since young.
din use it for shelter at all. =p
walking in the rain feels reli great!
and i mean it.
tt's my fav thing to do man! =)
i've been feeling giddy & sick the whole day.
i din bother at all la..
sick jiu sick. haha.
gonna enjoy myself~ doing things tt i like!
=)
feeling headache now. lol.
but nvm. i noe it's coming la.. haha.
shall go rest now.
tml no work! =(
stupid weixuan.....
everytime snatch my sunday away! humph!
shall rest tml then. =\ sian.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Friday, May 05, 2006
12:17 AM
suddenly feel like blogging..
went for NTU interview today..
for chemistry and biological chemistry.
total waste of my time!
because i go there, is not I talk. is HE talk.
like brainwashing us to come into NTU.
=\ feels weird.. shldn't it be an interview?
and when i came home..
i received a letter from them!..
like wth.
u've accepted me le still ask me go interview?
hmm.. think i shldn't be complaining so much..
some of my frens still haben got any news yet.
seriously i duno how the Unis function.
they're making everyone of us so anxious..
sian.
due to this interview, i din go teach today.
wonder if the kids miss me!
lol.
take today as a short break for me.
been very tired and slpy nowadays.
haha. even when i teach, i have no energy.
keep yawning.
lol. this canot go on!!!
gotta pick myself up and go all out again!
the kids will be going thru exams soon!
impt period..........................!!
oh yeah did i mention i got a new phone?
yeah! nokia 6280!
3g phone~ pretty fun! haha.
love the phone too~ the cam is like BAGUS!
2 megapixels! yeah~
got it with clement last sunday~
haha. my parents were there.
and his parents were there.
but nth much happened la.. haha.
wad else leh?
hmmm.....
oh yeah!
sy and i were chatting abt CRUISE jus now!
hell yeah~ i reli wanna go!!!!
like go on a holiday b4 we all start skool!
wont it be nice???
hee. ask her go check the price and stuffs!
so excited can! =p
haha okie la.. better go slp le.
work tml again!
yeahhh!!!
i'm enjoying my life!
and look at how time flies.......
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Thursday, April 27, 2006
11:56 PM
wonder wad i'm feeling now..
mixed feelings.
finally i understand the meaning of it.
knowing u're going on fine,
i'm truly happie.
but also knowing u're about to get over me,
i duno how i'm feeling.
i shld be happie for u.
but instead,
i feel someone jus squeezed my heart,
so hard tt it's crying in pain.
wad does it mean?
no idea.
it's gonna be 28th in 10 mins time.
this date has awaez been very special to me.
but issit still now?
this 28th..
i'll probably be spending it alone.
probably going somewhere alone.
somewhere i love.
somewhere.. to taste the memories,
that i've abandoned for quite some time.
i might drop some tears..
think i deserve to.
cox i have been bottling up all my pain and misses.
i had been a very strong baoyue.
but just tml, just one day..
one day for me to return back to the -weak me-.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Sunday, April 23, 2006
11:35 PM
tired.
i'm tired.
i'm damn tired.
i'm DEAD tired.
worked 7 days a week.
waoh. how nice.
but tt's wad i want!
AH HA!
=)
i jus wanna tire out myself.
no reason why. (:
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Friday, April 21, 2006
1:15 PM
today's the 21st.
one week later, it'll be 28th.
haii...
think i'd made a wrong decision last night.
i said i will let go if i wan to.
i said i will let go.
i said i will be jus fine alone.
i said i will not reply to his messages.
i said i will not pick up his calls.
i said i will not go online.
i said i will not call him at night.
i said all those above last night.
it's reli hard.
reli.
i hate the feeling knowing tt we have to let go.
we dun bear to.
both of us dun bear to.
but then how?
we feel our life is stagnant.
we're both waiting.
duno waiting for wad..
our life seems to be stuck here.
we noe we have to move on.
but we dun bear to.
i dun wan to leave him.
he doesnt wan to leave me either.
we are selfish.
i dun bear to see him with another gal.
he doesnt bear to see me with another guy.
then how now?
what can we do?
i'm reli confused....
he is aso.
we wan each other to move on.
we wan each other to find our own happiness.
but we are selfish.
i wan him to go noe new girls.
but if he reli did, i noe i will feel sour-y.
how now how now?
=(
hate staring at my phone.
even if there're messages, i can't reply.
even if there're calls, i can't pick up.
but i can't stop staring at my phone.
=(
jus wad the hell is wrong with me??!
WTH............
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
8:38 PM
-How Can I Not Love You-
cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know
Chorus:
How can i not love you
What do i tell my heart
When do i not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do i not miss you when you are gone
Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend it's over
Must be brave and we must go on, must not say
What we've known all along
Chorus:
How can i not love you
What do i tell my heart
When do i not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do i not miss you when you are gone
How can i not love you
Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we've known all along
Chorus:
How can i not love you
What do i tell my heart
When do i not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do i not miss you when you are gone
How can i not love you
When you are gone
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
9:30 PM
hmmm....hiyee~
haha. haben been updating.
life's a.... hmm.... a...... good?
yeah i tink it's good!
but.. i duno if it's right?..
hmmm.. or in fact, WE duno if it's right.
i dunoe wad i'm talking abt.
haha. ahhh...
yesh we -broke up-.
but haha.
this is weird..
we still keep in close contact,
and i mean close.
we meet almost everyday,
and i mean everyday.
though we're both working! =\
i reli like the way we are now..
i love, in fact.
but i guess we both noe,
it's not reli good to start again NOW.
maybe like wad he said,
wait till i settled down in uni..
wait till he.. ya.. he..
wait till...... i'm ready again. =)
*shrugs*
lol. i reli am confused..
but i noe this thing for sure,
i still love him.
and he still loves me too.
and tt both of us dun bear to let go.
=) i'm happie. and sad. =(
am i obstructing him from attaining his true happiness?
or is he reli happie being with me?
hmm.. tell me?
all i can do now,
is to take things slowly..
one step at a time ba~
tt's wad he is doing aso i tink.
we dunoe wad to do!.. lol.
headache.
=\
slowly ba~
hee.
currently happily happily.
working, teaching, loving.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Saturday, April 01, 2006
10:59 PM
will change a new blogskin soon~
but will be working everyday leh..
hahaha soon la soon la..
hmm.. and..
HAPPIE BDAY to my dearest cousin!
love ya to bits! muacks!!
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Friday, March 31, 2006
1:15 AM
when the night gets reli quiet,
my mind and heart,
can't stop thinking of u.
i noe i'll be going thru a tough time.
i mean, we will be.
but i noe, i noe..
we'll brace thru this..
and shall let time and fate decide..
our future?
my future?
and your future?
-*only heaven knows*-
hai.
i duno if god is reli playing pranks on me.
i jus faced something reli bad ytd..
and 2 funny things had to happen today.
1stly, in the morning..
a -i-duno-him- guy..named steve.
claiming he's jonathan's fren..
claiming he just wanna noe new frens..
asked if i'd give him a chance to woo me.
oh my oh my.
he'd been asking for my number..
but like wth.
i have simply no mood for anything man~
so i kinda pissed him off, i tink. =p
i just simply tell him..
"even if i do give u a chance,
even if i do agree to be with u,
i'll still love this current boy of mine."
=p hee. i guess he =\ .lidat.
hahaha!
but.. whatever.
he came at a super wrong time.
2ndly, at nite..
when i was walking home..
i keep feeling someone following me.
i turned..............
AND! haha.
eeucks. he waved.
and asked if we could make frens.
i shook my head and walked off quickly.
like. so scary.
=(
see. is god playing with me?
i guess so..
i dun like this feeling. =\
it makes me feel even more lonely..
haizzz.
let's be happie!
i wanna be happie! yeap.
let our -best way out- have a value.
let our -best way out- do smth beneficial for us.
if u reli think it's the -best way out-..
i'll be holding 3 jobs~
1) i LOVEEE teaching the kids @ yuhua cc!
2) i dun like promoting cams!
3) i'll LIKE promoting CHOCS! yeahhh!!
i'll be busy.
i'll keep myself occupied.
=)
i noe this will work!..
dun worry yeah..
it wont be tiring de~
i can brace thru it de!
my dearest, and my frens..
haha. i'll be working almost everyday!
dunid to worry abt me k!
lidat i will have more $$$!!!
then can treat SOME of u!
lol. yeah???? haha.
yeap~
=)
*hugs*
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Thursday, March 30, 2006
11:06 AM
things have ended..
well...
we'll live happily as we promised k?
though the last thing i ever wan to happen had already happened... well, yeah. =)
i've cried enough le..
i'm going to think thru properli..
my future, my everything..
and whether ur words are true.
hmmm. yesh no doubt,
we still have feelings for each other..
and i mean, yeah..
i still love u.
alot. =p
but maybe this way out may be able to bring us some surprises.. or hopefully something good and beneficial for both of us.. =)
i cry, not becox i'm weak..
yes.. i can't bear to let go..
i can't bear to leave..
tt's true.~
1yr6months being with u..
all our habits,
everything we used to do,
have to start changing again.
no more our "good nite phrase"..
no more..so many la.. dun wan list out. haha.
i will miss u.
definitely, i will..
hope u'll miss me too! hee. (:
mingyue and haijun will be well taken care of.
i promise..
they're my dearests now..
father elephant,
take good care of urself ah!
***muacks***
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
` u're the BEST present i've ever received *
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
3:00 AM
"Everything in life is temporary,
because everything changes.
That's why it takes great courage to love,
knowing it might end anytime
but having the faith it will last forever."
-* yeah..tt's like so true~
"Just because people change and move on with life,
it doesn't mean that they love you any less."
-* oh..i hope so too.
"Every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around."
-*yeah.. but how?
"When people you care about change,
they change your whole life...."
-* how true..
"Sometimes I think about the first time
I realized that I loved you ...
it was as if my eyes took a picture at that moment
and stored it in my heart.
Sometimes I think about how much my life has changed
because of you.
I think about you and your happiness,
about us and our life together,
and I realize that you are as much a part of me now
as the air I breathe and the dreams I have.
But, from time to time,
I still like to remember the first time
I looked into your eyes and saw my future there."
-* 28sept2004.
i know u'll come here.
*..u'll NEVER be replaced..*
Clement . bAoyuE
